Day 5 & 6 without you

This day finally was reach ady..
I can't hear your sound anymore..
I can't see you anymore..
I Duno how long time that I can tahan it..

Bebe.. Sori for my selfish..
Cz I was early one day than you to leave the home..
Cz I reali scare I will cry again..
I don't want to let you see my malu that side again..
I'm reali very scare..

Yesterday I was go back home to told all of our problem ady..
My parent also say you was reali one good girl..
They say me "if you reali love this girl .. U must change yourself.."
Not only try.. Cz this girl was reali cz of you have do a lot of things ady..
"You also know this is a good girl.. A good girl is not easy to find.. Then why you are not appreciate ?"

After clam down few days.. I was reali think and think..
I should not so angry till like this..
I should not not believe you..
I should know all the thing that you do are because of me also..
Sori bebe.. Sori bebe.. Sori bebe..
I reali feel very sori and sori..
My heart was pain now and ever..
I sure u will always be the first in my heart..
I LOVE YOU BEBE..

Now you are move out ady..
I can't care you anymore..
You must know care yourself..
I hope 3 years later will I take care you back..

Day 4 without you

Today was last day that I'm still together you..
So fast already past one week..
Start from next week we unable to meet each other anymore..

I can't hear your sound only sleep..
I can't see your face..
I can't talk with you..
I can't know everything about you..
I can't know what happen to you..
I can't know where you go..😓😩😫

Days 3 without you

Yesterday I was cry again..

Haha..

I can't control again. 

Actually this few days I also waiting you back then I only sleep de.. 

But the most worst thing is I know you came in my room..

But I only wake up after u go..

Shit..

But very hapi thing that is finally yesterday I saw you..

Even just a one second..

I also feel warm and hapi ady..

I think the most last thing that you buy for me is this.

Egg tart..

Even just a simple thing..

But I still will appreciate it..

I can't upload the photo by using phone..

Haha..

Sori..

Day 2 without you..

Insomnia.. I want died ady la..
I already few days keep like this..
1a.m..3a.m..5.00a.m..
2a.m..4a.m..5.00a.m..
Walao.. Reali feel very very very tired lo..
How I want to survive with this type of life??

Yesterday was the first day that we totally nvr talk.. Nvr face each other..
That type of pain was come out again..
Last time at least we got say something nonsense..
But now.. One word also don't have..
No one can understand this type of pain..
Reali pain.. Pain.. Pain.
But what can I do?
At last I have to face this type of problem also..

Now every morning I have to come over office here to sleep at car..
Just because I scare to face you..
But every moment I keep thinking you..

Yesterday I was trying to not see anything happen to you..
But my heart was thinking like that.. But my mind is totally different..
I can't do it..
SORRY... I'M WRONG ADY..

The End

22.06.2014
This date was the date that officially our relationship was end up..
Finally we find out the solution that are comfortable for both of us..
I was still cant accept this are the truth..
My heart was reali pain.. Pain.. Pain.. and pain..
There have no other word can speak out my feeling..

We have speak out all the truth..
All the thing that I want to know..
All the thing that I not believe..
All the thing that I would like to ask..

And she honestly tell me that we are break up.. Please let me go..
This word was like a knife knives in my heart..
I have no choice to not let you go anymore..

As what you say yesterday..
We have pass the first two stage that normally couple have to face..
But we can't pass the last stage..
And the problem is our trust..

You say so far now u don't want to get bf  anymore..
I have feel like this also..
But u more lucky u got a reali one good friend that you can share all the thing with him..
But I still haven't get the person yet..

Now all the thing that I can only share here and keep in my heart..
I have no choice..
Yesterday we have make a promise that we will meet up on 02.03.2017 at high skul..
I Duno on that time you will get a new bf  or get a child also..
But I just hope to give a conclusion to our love story..
If both of us are decide sure will get together..
Then our love story should will be continue..

I know this 3 year time can't say is long or short..
But sure this is the experience that should be face by us..
I wish that both of us can pass by the last stage also..
Cz our love story is sour start from beginning..
Hope the end of our love story is sweet and warm..

I reali wish that will be happen..
God.. Please let the wish have been come true..

I want to make this girl  have no choose wrong people..
I'm the man that you are choose correctly..
Please believe me girl..

You always 1st in my heart..

Bebe..

I know we have no other way to back as prior..

I know no matter what i do, how i do,

I still can't get you back to my side..

I have no other choice..

The only thing that i can do is just let you go..

This in the only best way to give you more happy..

My heart to you was still no change..

I was keep loving you like usual..

Only thing that difference is my love to you was become more deep and deep and deep..

But you can't feel it..

Yup..Im very selfish..

But all my selfish is only to you..

Now what i all care is you..

My mind was full of you..

I was always keep think about you..

Our relationship road was continue 4 years ady..

It was not easy..

During the processing.. we have happy, sad, angry, and etc..

But the problem is even we have go through all the process..

We still can't get the point that are comfortable to both of us..

Our love story was reali like a drama..

Not all the ppl have also same like us..

But im appreciate what i can get and learn from our this relationship..

I know now you have find a new life to balance your life..

I wasn't keep like this..

I know you won't accompany me anymore..

My road was just left me only..

We have say that we will accompany each other till the end..

But now duno this still can happen or not..

I duno how was our life in future..

But i know you don't have me is more happy..

But for me is not..

I was very suffer now..

I duno i can tahan till that level or not..

Bebe.. i can promise you..

I will treat your family as my family member..

I will do as what i promise to you be4 even if you were not my wife..

I know you are still loving me also..

But u just don't like me to control over you..

You want more freedom..

Now we are 21 years old..

If we are able to continue our love story..

I wish that when im 26 years old I can make our love story have upgrade to another level..

Then when around 26-28..

We have build up the family ady..

Now what we facing is just the timing problem..

Bebe..all this word i was keep saying very many times ady..

I was reali scare u will leave me..

I was reali scare u will don't want me..

I was reali scare u will not love me anymore..

But what i hope is..

You will become my wife..

You will build up a family with me..

You will accompany me till the end..

You will keep happy in all your future life..

BEBE..YOU ALWAYS WILL BE THE 1ST IN MY LIFE..XD