You always 1st in my heart..

Bebe..

I know we have no other way to back as prior..

I know no matter what i do, how i do,

I still can't get you back to my side..

I have no other choice..

The only thing that i can do is just let you go..

This in the only best way to give you more happy..

My heart to you was still no change..

I was keep loving you like usual..

Only thing that difference is my love to you was become more deep and deep and deep..

But you can't feel it..

Yup..Im very selfish..

But all my selfish is only to you..

Now what i all care is you..

My mind was full of you..

I was always keep think about you..

Our relationship road was continue 4 years ady..

It was not easy..

During the processing.. we have happy, sad, angry, and etc..

But the problem is even we have go through all the process..

We still can't get the point that are comfortable to both of us..

Our love story was reali like a drama..

Not all the ppl have also same like us..

But im appreciate what i can get and learn from our this relationship..

I know now you have find a new life to balance your life..

I wasn't keep like this..

I know you won't accompany me anymore..

My road was just left me only..

We have say that we will accompany each other till the end..

But now duno this still can happen or not..

I duno how was our life in future..

But i know you don't have me is more happy..

But for me is not..

I was very suffer now..

I duno i can tahan till that level or not..

Bebe.. i can promise you..

I will treat your family as my family member..

I will do as what i promise to you be4 even if you were not my wife..

I know you are still loving me also..

But u just don't like me to control over you..

You want more freedom..

Now we are 21 years old..

If we are able to continue our love story..

I wish that when im 26 years old I can make our love story have upgrade to another level..

Then when around 26-28..

We have build up the family ady..

Now what we facing is just the timing problem..

Bebe..all this word i was keep saying very many times ady..

I was reali scare u will leave me..

I was reali scare u will don't want me..

I was reali scare u will not love me anymore..

But what i hope is..

You will become my wife..

You will build up a family with me..

You will accompany me till the end..

You will keep happy in all your future life..

BEBE..YOU ALWAYS WILL BE THE 1ST IN MY LIFE..XD