Wednesday, 19 November 2014

My lover

Bebe..
I know this few days u was OT like a hell..
Sure very tired liao de larh..
But I Duno how to help you also..
But I wish you when young time will suffer..
When in future you will get more easy life...
I know you just a normal girl..
But for me you is a special girl for me..

Up to now everything I will also think of you first..
A lot of thing I sure want to go with you.. Do with you.. Enjoy with you..
But I Duno still got this chance of not..

Tuesday, 28 October 2014

We lose to the time

Bebe..
We are not lose to anyone..
We are just lose to the time..
Don't have right or wrong between us..
Just the timing between us are not right..

I'm still the same word..
You always inside my heart..
I never change my heart to you..
But I still will wish you hPpy always girl..

Tuesday, 21 October 2014

心很乱

Bebe..
This is the time I wrote blog After a long period..

Tomolo I going to Genting lerh..
But Duno this time why feel very uncomfortable lerh..
I think now I can understand ur feeling lol..
Last time u Susah payah to accompany me to go just Cz my selfish..
I'm reali sorry bebe..
Somemore that time we have still overnight there lerh..
Now I can only understand you..

How you ah?
I saw you very bc at the moment..
That good ah..
Then u got extra time to think about me ah..
Lol..
So muka tebal I..

Anyway for me still the same..
Important u stay happy n healthy..
You are the everyone for me..
This is still the same up to now..

Good nitez bebe..

Monday, 22 September 2014

I wish I can forgot you..

I wish I can forgot you..
The day u still in my heart I won't be feel happy also..
I can't really get the happiness..

The last two day u was told me that ask me to go ahead if can get a good girl..
But from now u r the only one good girl..
Actually I know you heart is got your Sifu de..
Not your papa..
If is your papa u sure will reject de..
But what can I do??

Actually the wrong timing u say is because now you was waiting your Sifu..
I can't do anything to stop you..
But if you love him I will reali disappointed with you..
But I can also do is wish you..

I'm just the outsider..

Friday, 19 September 2014

Happy Flyday..

Today was Yan birthday lerh..
I don't thnk that we can become a so close friend like this..

As a normal.. We have eat and celebrate in happy city steamboat which at Kota damansara..
This is the places that we always go whenever got the important date..
After dinner.. We was go dreamz bakery..
But the time that we reach there is quick late..
They are closing ady..
So we just can take away and go..
Then we was go the encorp mall for our 2nd round..

We was sit there chit chat..eat..talk some nonsense till 11.00 p.m..
Then we was plan for our trip..
Which is "Sekeping Seredah" located at Serendah..
Even I was stay there I don't ever know this places also..
So sad lorh..

Good nitez..

Wednesday, 17 September 2014

New Working Environment

Today was my first day in the new environment for my new job..
The places that I work is more far and far..
Actually I quick excited for my new job larh..
But I think this company is not very suit for me..
I Duno how to describe it..
But "you" understand what I mean..

The new perodua Axia is coming out lerh..
I want to owe a this nice car..
Which I hope this is my first car larh..
I want to make me to own this car..

Good nitez everyone..

Friday, 12 September 2014

Day 72,73,74,75,76,77 & 78

Good Morning Everyone..
I'm here again..

I want to say is the Redang Trip 3D2N is reali fun for me..
I reali enjoy the trip and all the thing with you all.
That was also my first time take flight also..
But the experience is fun for me..

During the trip..
We have go for snorkeling..dinner..play beach volley ball and take photo..
Alot alot of thing..
We have eat one RM6 ABC also..
RM3 per snake..
Is damn expensive..
Sure there untung alot lorh..

During the trip.. the uncompleted thing is just the hotel that we stay..
Actually the ppl there is okay..
They can give us to take the coconut with free..
We can drink as much as we can..
But we only drink 3 only..

During the first day..
The island was look like book by five of us only..
We can enjoy the whole island..
We can do whatever we want..
Haizz.. is very stupid for me..
Wherever trip I go..
I sure will get hurt also..

Okay..after the happy thing..
Now is the sad thing happen..
One day.. i was x sengaja open your notes to see the message that you type in phone..
Actually after break up with me.. u got the new target actually..
U was saying that u get in touch with your sifu..
Which before we was argue n break up cz of this guy..
N yesterday when i was see you chat with your sifu..
The chat background all is photo between you n your sifu..
Now i only understand that.. the 4 years relationship is not anything..
U can change then reali get change..
I know I got no right to campur tangan your P + C..
But this reali hurt me alot..
You was lie on me.. this time u was lie on me..
Yesterday u was saying that why me always muka pahit..
The reason why I muka pahit is cz of this..

I only the stupid want..
I was think that you still love me.. u still care me..
But till finally all is no..
That day when I say Terence thing with you that time..
You was saying all of us that"肤浅"
You told me before.. that is reali got a pure friendship between girl n boy..
That is nonsense when speak out from your mouth..
I won't believe anymore..
Even I know I got no right to say all this cz I'm not your bf anymore..
But for me..
我再也承受不了多一次这样的痛..
我唯一能让我不再面对这样的痛就是我要消失在你的面前了
我不能再拥有你了
我只能祝福你能找到你要的幸福..

This is the last message that I wrote for my miss to you..
After this I won't write it anymore..
You can find your true love..
The 3 years promised I think from now you already broke it..
Is it still useful??
I reali duno..

And i want to say thank you cz you still are the only one who celebrate and accompany me to pass by my 21 years old..
The present that you give to me i will just keep it only..
Thank you very much..
I want reali put down you this time..
When i can't put down you just make me own suffer only..
That is no point for me to miss you since you got a new target..
Then about your mum..
I duno how to face her also..

Friday, 5 September 2014

Day 68,69,70 & 71

Bebe..
This few days I was stay at your home also..
But the most happy thing is the present that I received from you..

Ya.. I know even out status now is different..
But I'm still happy when get a present from you..
The watch that I receive I will keep it as well as possible..

Bebe..
I appreciate that you still beside me and accompany me..
This few days the interview was making me so fan..
But you still beside me..

TQ bebe..
Love you so much..

Monday, 1 September 2014

Day 67 without you..

Bebe..
02.09.2014 just few hour more..
I'm officially 21 years old ady .
Actually what I hope I already get..
That is you are the only one who accompany me to pass me 21 years old..
Thank you bebe..

Today you all was go for see the furniture..
Actually I hope I will be one of your family member also..
I can join your big family..
I will do best to make you in future will get the good life..


Sunday, 31 August 2014

Day 64,65 & 66 without you..

Bebe..
Just now when I see ah Ming and elison..
Suddenly got one moment that I scare..
That why just now when I back I was keep speed only..

I'm here wanted apologize with you..
Now since I still was a outsider..
Now I only know how ugly I am last time...
I keep shout at you..
Keep talk louder with you..

Reali sorry bebe..

Thursday, 28 August 2014

Day 62 & 63 without you..

Bebe...
Tomolo finally was our last day of internship lorh..
We shud feel very hapi and today your boss also giving good comment to mr huang..
U shud hapi till maximum ady..
I wish you happy forever also..

Yesterday I was feel a little bit unhappy lo..
I know we are break up..
But you no nid keep saying this in front of me de..
I know this is true..
But I sure one day I will get back you de..

Trust me..
Good nitez bebe..

Tuesday, 26 August 2014

Day 61 without you..

Bebe..
Today I was talk with my boss ady..
Then my boss say have to ask the audit manager first..
Do you think think that I can get the opportunity??

Haizzz..
I hope them can accept me la..

Good nitez my darling..XD

Monday, 25 August 2014

Day 60 without you..

Bebe..
Today I feel abit sad also..
I hear your boss scold you English not good .
Fuck him la..
Not every ppl also get this type of opportunity to learn a good English..

Bebe..
Today you say 02.09.2014 if I don't speak out where I bring you go..
Then you will go meet your friend..
I Duno whether you are say serious or just want to kacau me only..
If true then I was reali sad lo..
But I know you sure is want to kacau me only..

I hope you are the one who accompany me pass the most important birthday in my whole life..
So I hope you can reali accompany me..
You are the important girl in my life..

Good nitez..
My lover..

Day 58 & 59 without you..

Bebe..
I go Melaka this 3D2N trip is reali tired..
First day go I was sleep at 3.00a.m..
Second day I was sleep at 4.00a.m..
Woohoo..
Is reali tired..
We was just keep eating since we open an eye..
Is reali never stop you know..
Till midnight we was keep eat also..
Yesterday we was go movie..
The name is "Lucy"..
Is quick a nice movie actually..

Bebe.. Here to tell you la..
This Melaka trip make me think a lot of our memories..
Which are reali belong to both of us..
Since I step into jonker street..
A lot of flashback was coming out..

My girl..
No one can replace you in my heart..
Good nitez..

Saturday, 23 August 2014

Day 57 without you..

Bebe..
Yesterday after work I was straight go Melaka ady..
I was stay in my house friend..
Is quite tired actually..

Bebe..
Tell you the fantastic thing..
We reach Melaka around 9.00p.m then we have go for satay celup..
Then around 10.00p.m we have go for lala..
Then around 1.00a.m we was go for eat 烧肉..
Is damn crazy you know..
Then I was chat with Terence till 3.00a.m then only sleep..
Walao..


Thursday, 21 August 2014

Day 56 without you..

Bebe..
Today I was check with National Service ady..
But that is the sad case
That is I have to go back the National Service..
And they ask me to apply re-go again the Kem..
And the Kem should be on next year January..

Haizzz.. Bebe..
Is reali waste of my time la..
3 month leh..

Wednesday, 20 August 2014

Day 54 & 55 without you..

Bebe..
Yesterday I was very happy you know..
Cz yesterday I saw ur wechat profile picture change to our picture you know..
At the moment I was thinking that maybe the network problem was lag or whatever..
Then I was try to restart my phone then check again..
Is it stupid?
Then the truth is u have change to our picture..
I was keep seeing the picture you know..

I reali happy that..
But the profile picture is not long lasting..
U just put few hour only..
Then u have change to the coffee ady..

Bebe..
After separate with you then I only realize that how important you are in my life..
How much that I care you..
Bebe.. Now I'm was ready to together back with you..
But still not in the correct timing..
Cz I want when you together back with me I want to become a man that are at least can afford all the expenses that you are facing..

I want you become a girl that are most Bahagia in the world..
Good nitez bebe..

Monday, 18 August 2014

Day 53 without you..

Bebe..
Today I was going your house to do the report together..
This moment is not always get it..
So I reali enjoy this type of moment..
TQ bebe..

I love you bebe..

Sunday, 17 August 2014

Day 49,50,51 & 52 without you..

Bebe..

This few days have no time to on9..
So I didn't write blog..
This few days I was very hapi de is I can follow you go ur makeup class and become ur model..
This are the most happy thing I have it..
Even is just a few hour classes but during the classes  I hope is more long time to go..
But the sad thing is..
You told me that all of your friend now that we are break up..
When I hear this that is sad.. But this is the true thing..

And the most happy thing during that day is..
We still can share food to eat..
We still got previous time that time of happiness..
You still can take food for me..

And the other thing is..
When I say something that are just understand by both of us..
I'm reali happy with it..
Even just a simple thing..
But for me all this is the most expensive memories for me..
Is true bebe..
The day me got a feel as we like first date..
The different is just a we are more know each other..

Good night my lover..
I love you forever..

Wednesday, 13 August 2014

Day 48 without you..

Bebe..
R u viewing my blog?
Now I'm was thinking something..
I Duno shud I stay on this company or not..
If I stay at the company then I will shud learn a lot of thing..
But in this company I have afraid two ppl..
One is manager and one is the semi senior..

But if let's say I leave the company rite..
But I Duno got ppl will take me for work or not..
U r the one important in my life..
So I hope to hear your opinion..
How shud I choose?

Cz if I stay in this company..
Then I have a chance to touch in IA..
That is my hope thing..
Not a lot of company have public listed company also..

How shud I choose bebe?
Good nitez..

Tuesday, 12 August 2014

Day 47 without you..

Bebe..
Since like many days didn't talk to you ady..
Today we was go steamboat again..
But this time got a ex-colleague.. name JC..
Something like that..
This is a girl.. She quite nice actually la..
But just I'm not so close with her la..

Today this steamboat dinner was free you know..
Cz one of our colleague was pass in her ACCA..
So we only celebrate on today..
Then actually all of them okay de..
Just during before and after working hour is different lo..

Bebe..
The Terence was reali teach me a lot of thing..
Even me is just a few month intern only..
But he treat me reali like a very good friend..
Today he told me that..
If I do an external audit in the company..
Then I will get a chance to learn I.A..
So this make me have think that to stay in that company..

Good nitez bebe..

Monday, 11 August 2014

Day 45 & 46 without you..

Good morning bebe..
Is a new a week again..
Wish you have a good day in this new week..


Friday, 8 August 2014

Day 43 & 44 without you..

Bebe..
Today when I go your house then u was going celebrate with your colleague..
I can feel you that you are very happy..
Important you are feel happy now..

Bebe..
Good nitez..

Wednesday, 6 August 2014

Day 42 without you..

Bebe..
Today I was OT again..
After that I was waiting Terence till 8.++ then we only go for dinner..
Is reali very tired lo..

Bebe..
You know today I was OT alone in office..
Then you know how scary when alone stay in office..

Then today we was going to paradigm mall for lunch..
We was going one shop that name as"Plan B"..
The food is quick nice la.. But the price is much more nice..
Only lunch then I was spend around RM3+.++..
Is damn expensive..

Then the most angry thing I tell you..
Today that "person" rite..
Today just give me P&L and B&S..
Then ady ask when can get the complete tax comp ady..
How can I finish it with the short time period..

Haizzz..
Bebe..can you stay beside me?
-.-''
Good nitez..



Tuesday, 5 August 2014

Day 40 & 41 without you..

Bebe..
How was your life in Johor ?
Do you suitable in their life?
Everything fine with you?

Today I was go dinner with my friend at murni..
This is the mamak shop..

Bebe..
I tell you oh..
Today now I only how was my friend treat the two ppl..
That ppl you know who is it..
All of us also got this type of comment to them..
Most of us also got the same problem with me..
But just then they don't want to speak it out only..
Haha..
Then Duno why suddenly all spoke out ady..
Ok la..
At least we know that we are in the same line..

Good nitez bebe..

Sunday, 3 August 2014

Day 39 without you..

Bebe..
Tomolo was Monday..
U have to go outstation ady..
I hope you don't give yourself so much of stress and try to relaks yourself..
I know this is not easy..
But I wish you can do it la..

+ Oil bebe..
I'm always beside you..
Good nitez..

Saturday, 2 August 2014

Day 38 without you..

Bebe..
Today was a valentine day that name"七夕情人节"
I know I can't speak it out to you buy face to face..
But what I can do is I speak here with you..
"Bebe..happy valentine day"..
I wish you stay happy forever..
Pretty forever..
Of course got me is more better lo..XD

BEBE.. Actually today I got plan wanna buy a flower to you de..
But I Duno as what reason shud I give it to you..
I scare you will reject it..

Bebe.. Actually we have separate quick a long period ady..
I have miss miss miss you so much..
Do you have a same feeling as me?

Bebe..
This few weekend I will work hard to go to gym..
I want to show you that your lover will get a slim body fit also..

Good nitez.. Sweet dream..

Friday, 1 August 2014

Day 36 & 37 without you..

Bebe..
Today I was feel very down..
You know why?
Cz all my friend was leave me ady..
Then now just leave me alone which they are together internship with me..
Actually for me this is a normal thing..
But bebe..
I don't like this kind of separate..

This kind of separate make me think back the day that we break up..
That kind of pain will not forgot forever..
I will always remember it in my heart..

Yesterday we was go watch movie at paradigm mall..
That movie named"ju-on3"..
Is a scary movie also la..
Actually this was like our last movie before we separate..

And today we was like eating our last dinner..
Actually the dinner we was eating till very happy..
We all are enjoy also..
But Duno any of them got a same feeling with me or not..

Next week you was going to Johor again ..
But this time I was no jealous anymore..
I just want you to enjoy it and take a good care..
You always in my heart bebe..

Good nite..
Sweet dream..

Wednesday, 30 July 2014

Day 35 without you..

Bebe..
Today I was  very happy cz finally we can using wechat with not just the text msg only..
I can hear your voice more..
I'm reali very happy..
Bebe.. Hope we can stay together till the end..
But I'm reali very tired now..

Good nitez bebe.. I____you..

Monday, 28 July 2014

Day 33 & 34 without you..

Bebe..
Yesterday I was headache again..
But even headache but I was still waiting your message..
But after that you didn't reply anymore..

Actually yesterday I want ask you is it enjoy your life that havinv now..
But till finally I never ask also..
Because I scare that I get the answer that I don't want..
But is also I see that you very happy now..

Now I can't able to control myself to not thinking you..
Bebe.. Do you want to get back to me??
This type of question I was ask myself many times ady..

Today daddy was bring us to go ipoh eat dim sum
That restaurant name"富山点心"
I wish that you are together with me eat breakfast..
But this day Duno when will reach..

And just now I also see you upload photo that you celebrate birthday with your popo.
I wish that I'm inside there also.
I hope that I'm one of your family also..

Good nitez bebe..

Saturday, 26 July 2014

Day 32 & 33 without you

Bebe..
This few days we was work till very late lo..
Around 9.00p.m only can finish work..
Then yesterday we was go eat hokkien mee at pj uptown..
Reali very very very tired lo..

Then today morning u got make up class rite..
Then I was sengaja pushing go inside your skul there then wanna want to see you park your at where..
But I can't find it..

Today u was go back sitiawan ady..
The is to celebrate your popo birthday..
If last time sure I will join you ady..
But this time I have no this chance anymore..
I miss the moment when together with you..

Just now I have go do gym with kwo..
I want to make you to see another look of ur lover that is meXD

Good nitez bebe..

Thursday, 24 July 2014

Day 31 without you..

Bebe..
Now I finally only get to rest..
This few days we have to OT till very late to rush up all of our company..
Now I only can reali understand that type of tired that you have it..
Then we go have our dinner at pj SS2 where there is famous with dessert..
That is "记得吃"
Do you know it?

Today we was go client company which nearby your office..
I still thinking that is it we will meet each other on lunch time..
But who know the senior wanna go other place to eat..
So .. No choice lo..
Then we very early then finish work ady..
Around 2.10p.m reach office ady..
Then do work till around 9.00p.m..

Good nitez bebe..

Wednesday, 23 July 2014

Day 30 without you..

Bebe..
Today I was go back home ady..
Cz I wanna show the redemption of the NSK points..
Then we decide that choose to redemd the "ban mian" thing..
So next time will be more easy to cook..
Haha..

Today I was go back home and eat two big bowl of rice..
Reali very full.. But is reali nice taste..
Reali long time didn't eat ady..
Then today mummy was say that last Saturday u cook rice to give them to eat..
Then u this stupid cut your hand..
How was your hand?
Is it well ady?

Bebe..
Today I was feel that mummy at home is very alone..
She Duno is it not feeling well or what..
If next time u got time more go back home accompany her la..
I also will accompany her more..

Good nitez bebe..

Tuesday, 22 July 2014

Day 29 without you..

Bebe..
Today officially was the one month that we break ady..
22 was the date that we we break up..
Bebe..
Was you still missing me?

Bebe..
This few days I was Duno what happen to myself..
I was keep saying the thing that shouldn't say in front of my colleague..
Haizzz...
I think that they will keep all this thing in their heart..

Bebe..
What should i do?
How should I do?

Good nitez..

Monday, 21 July 2014

Day 28 without you..

Bebe..
Today morning I was calling mummy ady..
I know that you are everything fine..
Then finally I lega now..

Today I was going the place that are familiar for both of us..
This places was have many many memories of both of us..
That is SS2 night market..
Today I went there and buy some food that are last time eat by us..
That is 10 of pork meat ball..
One pack of steam peanut..
Today when I was on the way back to home..
I was keep eating the pork meat ball..
Then I remember back last time you was feed me to eat.
Then u sure will give me eat one only then ask me stop ady..
All this memory keep appear in my mind..

Bebe.. Do you still remember all this?

Good nite..

Sunday, 20 July 2014

Day 26 & 27 without you..

Bebe..
Yesterday u was go and take your blood test result ady..
But I haven't call mummy and ask yet..
Hope god will bless you..

Bebe..
Today I was out of control again..
Sori ya..
I was cry again..
I Duno why suddenly so touching..
Suddenly I very miss you..

Bebe..
Sori ya..
Good nitez...


Saturday, 19 July 2014

Day 23,24 and 25 without you..

Bebe..
The first day i have go malay bazzar rammadhan..
Im not sure la.. but is something sound like that..
All my colleague is crazy you know..
They but till duno how to say..
After buy all the food then we go to another colleague house to finish all the food..
During the dinner we have talk, laugh and blow lo..
Actually this type of life is quick a good experiment during young la..
Then we eat till 9.30p.m like that only back each home..
 Cz the next day is a working day..

Then the second day was not happen anything..
Is just like a normal..

Then the third day which is yesterday..
This are the day after we have 24 days didnt meet each other..
At first I was feel shy cz i think that im have not prepare good yet.
But mummy say me if the plate of vegetable put there to long time then it will be cold ady..
Then finally i was do a big decision..
Then that is i have to go and face you..
First when i was see you i was feel not shy..
Is I have become more (that type of feeling i duno how to say)
But the thing is when i see you back it make me more confirm want to take you back belong to me..
after that we still go eat dinner together..
but i sure one thing that is you reali enjoy the lifestyle that you having now..

But i want to make sure that you are come back to me..




Wednesday, 16 July 2014

Day 22 without you..

Bebe..
How was you this few days?
Everything fine with you?
Your fatty are still waiting you at here..
You can feel it or not?
Nowadays.. your fatty has become kurus ady lo..
Now finally I was get 6 in front of my weight ady..
Haha..
Do you surprise with this?


I was very very very miss you..
Do you miss me also ?

Good nite bebe..

Tuesday, 15 July 2014

Day 20 & 21 without you..

Bebe..
Yesterday I was go back home ady..
Cz today is holiday..
Yesterday I was go watch ghost movie again..
That is do by 张家辉..
That movie actually is not scary la..
But u won't want to see this type of movie also..

Bebe..
Today you was go take your result of blood test .
Is it fine with you?
Anything are okay to you?

Bebe..
I reali very miss you..
When I was see you update your status on Facebook you are going anywhere..
I we're wish that I'm beside you and accompany you..
I want every moment that are belong to us should follow us..

I don't like type of life like this still happen to both of us..
Haizzzz..
Good nite bebe..

Sunday, 13 July 2014

Day 18 & 19 without you..

Bebe..
Yesterday I was go watch movie with my friend at paradigm mall..
The movie name is "deliver us from evil"..
Actually this is not very scary movie la..
Just got some part will get shock la..

Actually I will go watch is because I would like to know the feeling when go out with friend is it will very happy?
I have try it..
It is happy..
But that kind of happy is different.
I dunno is because I have change ady or what..
This kind of happy is different with the type of happy when together with you..
I Duno you will same with me or you are reali enjoy it..

Today you have go blood test .
But I haven't call mummy yet..
So later I will call her and ask your status..
So I wish everything are fine with you..

Good night bebe..


Friday, 11 July 2014

Day 17 without you..

Bebe..
Today I was go dinner with friend at Wong Kok SS 2..
When I reach the place then I have miss you again..
When I go dinner is happy..
But that type of happy is different with the happy when stay with you..
Even when we eat there.. We got laugh we got talk..
But all this is just the Duno how to say..
I more miss the is the moment when I stay together with you..
Even till now I still hope you were back anytime..

Bebe..
I reali hope  to face with you..
I reali hope to stay together with you..
But now is still not the time..

Today I was cry again..
I Duno why..
I reali reali reali very miss you..

I know you were still continue to accompany me to continue our road..
I know I won't alone on the road..

Good nite bebe..
Love you..


Thursday, 10 July 2014

Day 16 without you

Bebe..
Today from mummy mouth I know that you are not feeling well..
You gastric..
I know you won't tell me..
But I hope you will get well soon..

Today actually I got back home..
But I know daddy go fetch you..
Actually I wanna wait you de..
But I'm think that I'm still not improve yet..
So I don't want to meet you first..

In future when I become a perfect one..
I will stand in front of you to meet you..

Today mummy say will bring you to blood test on this Sunday..
You must be don't have anything ah..
You must be get well soon..
I always will beside of you..

Love you always..
Good night bebe..

Wednesday, 9 July 2014

Day 15 without you..

Bebe..
Today I was see you upload the photo when you are going to Penang..
From the photo..
I can feel you that you are reali very happy..
This was the photo that I saw you smile after a long time period..
Now I only realized that how you are very unhappy when together with me..

I think now I have no reason to disturb you anymore..
Cz when the moment that you are not together with me then you are only happy..

Sorry..
Good nitez..

Tuesday, 8 July 2014

Day 14 without you..

Bebe..
Today I was fetch my friend back home..
But very funny one thing that is got one of my friend she Duno how the way back home..
Damn funny lo..

Good night bebe..
I Duno is it eat wrong thing or what..
My stomach not feeling very well ..

Monday, 7 July 2014

Day 13 without you..

Bebe..
Yesterday I was driving honda to come over here..
Cz yesterday when I take the car go service black oil that people saya the battery is sampai masa ady..
Haha..
Yesterday I was nyaris nyaris kena hit 2 times ady..
Maybe I was long time didn't drive the big car ady..

And one more thing..
Yesterday I was go cut hair ady..
Then today when I make a new hair style..
Then all the people in office also laugh at me..
Duno is it very funny or what..
If last time when u are beside me u sure will give me the opinion..

I reali hope the date that we promise will come faster..
Cz now I was reali damn miss you ady..
Yesterday I ask you to go back home and say your family miss you ..
Yup.. Maybe they got miss you also la..
But more miss you that person is me..

Good nitez bebe..

Sunday, 6 July 2014

Day 11 & 12 without you..

Bebe..
Yesterday I was cut a new hair style ady..
Cz I want to make myself some different..
And yesterday headache was attack me again..
Was very suffer..
But suddenly I was miss you again..
You come out in my mind..
But is useless ady..

Today I was go Ikea with mummy..( hope this was your future mummy also)
We go there actually want to buy something de..
But there have no stock .
So just go buy other thing lo..

Bebe.. Today I was buy some stone to decorate the gold fish house..
I also Duno they like or not..
Haha..

Today u was back from Penang ..
I sure u was very happy now..
And also very tired..

U better rest more la..
I scare u will sick in soon..
Know or not ??
I don't want u suffer ah..

Good nite.. Sweet dream..

Friday, 4 July 2014

Day 10 without you..

Bebe.. Today I have ate dinner with your family..
We go eat claypot chicken at puchong there..
You know where is the place the..

Today you have go Penang with your friend..
You should enjoy and safe trip ya..
I know this type of chance is not much..
You should Enjoy it..

I know now you sure very happy now..
Bebe.. Enjoy ya..
I hope you will buy some present for me de..
But I Duno whether you will buy for me or not..
Good night ..

Thursday, 3 July 2014

Day 8 and 9 without you

Bebe..
Today I was bought one more gold fish ady..
Finally they got pair ady..
But I'm not sure is it one male and one female la..
But at least they won't feel so lonely la..
Got partner for each other..

Today I was go eat dinner with my colleague..
We go eat steamboat at Kota damansara..
This shop I have tell you before..
Then we have eat around RM130..

Today u wechat me I was very happy..
I know you are worry mummy have no eat anything.
But if u just one call.. I sure will go back and see mummy de..
After that I got call back mummy..
But ah Ming ady fetch her go NSK ady..

Bebe.. 3 years time is reali difficult to pass..
I hope you can faster come back beside of me..
Sorry for one more thing..
My colleague was think that you are my gf .
Sorry for my selfish..
Because I still treat you as my gf..
So I didn't tell them that we have ady break up..
They still are asking about you..
I was very happy..

Good night bebe.. Sweet dream .

Tuesday, 1 July 2014

Day 7 without you

Bebe..
Yesterday I was brought a gold fish as my pets..
Actually first I was want to buy a dog..
But I think I have no time to care it..
So just only can buy a fish to accompany me..

Bebe.. Just now I have eat dinner with my colleague..
Then now I only can understand last time was how much of  benci of me..
Just now my friend bf was keep calling..
But I can't what are they say..
But I can say my friend face was turn to black ady..
So now I can understand that type of feel ady..

Today u was gastric..
Even I just hear you say but also feel very pain ady..
I know I can't care you anymore..
But I hope you will be safe la..
I don't want you get hurt anymore..

GOOD NITEZ BEBE..

Sunday, 29 June 2014

Day 5 & 6 without you

This day finally was reach ady..
I can't hear your sound anymore..
I can't see you anymore..
I Duno how long time that I can tahan it..

Bebe.. Sori for my selfish..
Cz I was early one day than you to leave the home..
Cz I reali scare I will cry again..
I don't want to let you see my malu that side again..
I'm reali very scare..

Yesterday I was go back home to told all of our problem ady..
My parent also say you was reali one good girl..
They say me "if you reali love this girl .. U must change yourself.."
Not only try.. Cz this girl was reali cz of you have do a lot of things ady..
"You also know this is a good girl.. A good girl is not easy to find.. Then why you are not appreciate ?"

After clam down few days.. I was reali think and think..
I should not so angry till like this..
I should not not believe you..
I should know all the thing that you do are because of me also..
Sori bebe.. Sori bebe.. Sori bebe..
I reali feel very sori and sori..
My heart was pain now and ever..
I sure u will always be the first in my heart..
I LOVE YOU BEBE..

Now you are move out ady..
I can't care you anymore..
You must know care yourself..
I hope 3 years later will I take care you back..

Saturday, 28 June 2014

Day 4 without you

Today was last day that I'm still together you..
So fast already past one week..
Start from next week we unable to meet each other anymore..

I can't hear your sound only sleep..
I can't see your face..
I can't talk with you..
I can't know everything about you..
I can't know what happen to you..
I can't know where you go..😓😩😫

Thursday, 26 June 2014

Days 3 without you

Yesterday I was cry again..
Haha..
I can't control again. 
Actually this few days I also waiting you back then I only sleep de.. 
But the most worst thing is I know you came in my room..
But I only wake up after u go..
Shit..
But very hapi thing that is finally yesterday I saw you..
Even just a one second..
I also feel warm and hapi ady..

I think the most last thing that you buy for me is this.
Egg tart..
Even just a simple thing..
But I still will appreciate it..
I can't upload the photo by using phone..
Haha..
Sori..

Wednesday, 25 June 2014

Day 2 without you..

Insomnia.. I want died ady la..
I already few days keep like this..
1a.m..3a.m..5.00a.m..
2a.m..4a.m..5.00a.m..
Walao.. Reali feel very very very tired lo..
How I want to survive with this type of life??

Yesterday was the first day that we totally nvr talk.. Nvr face each other..
That type of pain was come out again..
Last time at least we got say something nonsense..
But now.. One word also don't have..
No one can understand this type of pain..
Reali pain.. Pain.. Pain.
But what can I do?
At last I have to face this type of problem also..

Now every morning I have to come over office here to sleep at car..
Just because I scare to face you..
But every moment I keep thinking you..

Yesterday I was trying to not see anything happen to you..
But my heart was thinking like that.. But my mind is totally different..
I can't do it..
SORRY... I'M WRONG ADY..

Monday, 23 June 2014

The End

22.06.2014
This date was the date that officially our relationship was end up..
Finally we find out the solution that are comfortable for both of us..
I was still cant accept this are the truth..
My heart was reali pain.. Pain.. Pain.. and pain..
There have no other word can speak out my feeling..

We have speak out all the truth..
All the thing that I want to know..
All the thing that I not believe..
All the thing that I would like to ask..

And she honestly tell me that we are break up.. Please let me go..
This word was like a knife knives in my heart..
I have no choice to not let you go anymore..

As what you say yesterday..
We have pass the first two stage that normally couple have to face..
But we can't pass the last stage..
And the problem is our trust..

You say so far now u don't want to get bf  anymore..
I have feel like this also..
But u more lucky u got a reali one good friend that you can share all the thing with him..
But I still haven't get the person yet..

Now all the thing that I can only share here and keep in my heart..
I have no choice..
Yesterday we have make a promise that we will meet up on 02.03.2017 at high skul..
I Duno on that time you will get a new bf  or get a child also..
But I just hope to give a conclusion to our love story..
If both of us are decide sure will get together..
Then our love story should will be continue..

I know this 3 year time can't say is long or short..
But sure this is the experience that should be face by us..
I wish that both of us can pass by the last stage also..
Cz our love story is sour start from beginning..
Hope the end of our love story is sweet and warm..

I reali wish that will be happen..
God.. Please let the wish have been come true..

I want to make this girl  have no choose wrong people..
I'm the man that you are choose correctly..
Please believe me girl..


Saturday, 21 June 2014

You always 1st in my heart..

Bebe..
I know we have no other way to back as prior..
I know no matter what i do, how i do,
I still can't get you back to my side..
I have no other choice..
The only thing that i can do is just let you go..
This in the only best way to give you more happy..

My heart to you was still no change..
I was keep loving you like usual..
Only thing that difference is my love to you was become more deep and deep and deep..
But you can't feel it..

Yup..Im very selfish..
But all my selfish is only to you..
Now what i all care is you..
My mind was full of you..
I was always keep think about you..

Our relationship road was continue 4 years ady..
It was not easy..
During the processing.. we have happy, sad, angry, and etc..
But the problem is even we have go through all the process..
We still can't get the point that are comfortable to both of us..
Our love story was reali like a drama..
Not all the ppl have also same like us..
But im appreciate what i can get and learn from our this relationship..

I know now you have find a new life to balance your life..
I wasn't keep like this..
I know you won't accompany me anymore..
My road was just left me only..
We have say that we will accompany each other till the end..
But now duno this still can happen or not..
I duno how was our life in future..
But i know you don't have me is more happy..
But for me is not..
I was very suffer now..
I duno i can tahan till that level or not..

Bebe.. i can promise you..
I will treat your family as my family member..
I will do as what i promise to you be4 even if you were not my wife..
I know you are still loving me also..
But u just don't like me to control over you..
You want more freedom..

Now we are 21 years old..
If we are able to continue our love story..
I wish that when im 26 years old I can make our love story have upgrade to another level..
Then when around 26-28..
We have build up the family ady..
Now what we facing is just the timing problem..

Bebe..all this word i was keep saying very many times ady..
I was reali scare u will leave me..
I was reali scare u will don't want me..
I was reali scare u will not love me anymore..

But what i hope is..
You will become my wife..
You will build up a family with me..
You will accompany me till the end..
You will keep happy in all your future life..

BEBE..YOU ALWAYS WILL BE THE 1ST IN MY LIFE..XD





Friday, 30 May 2014

Relationship or friendship?

Now everyday I was keep seeing you just take the phone and press and press only..
If  other people dunno know was thinking you are chit chat with your bf..

I Duno know I'm in jealous or what..
Everyday we like a stranger..
I just like a mirror.. You just can see yourself.. But you can't see me..

Now even you not happy but the people that you want to talk out is not me anymore..
I'm ur bf but I'm look like nothing..
When I have talk extra.. U will use that kind of uncomfortable respond..

That kind of pain..
Haizz...
Who can understand me??
You got your friend to accompany you now ..
Last time you got ur  parent..

Now I'm got nothing..😭😓😖
Everyday my mind was just thinking you.. ALL IS ABOUT YOU...

Saturday, 24 May 2014

Finally can meet you

Finally yesterday you are back to home...
when i start to see you i was feel like..
Wa.. finally.. i  was waiting you for four days already.. finally you are back

but when you wake up n get to see me..
your first look to me is not a happy face..
but your first thing to find is your handphone..

finally now i understand why last time you will keep scolding me to take the phone..
now i also understand already..

this time you back from johor..
i feel that our relationship was become more strange..
i duno is my wrong or what..

till night time i cant tahan ady..
i was go n ask you..

Me: This weekend you got any places to go?
She: Why?
Me: Because long time no see you already ma..
She:...
Me: r u not feeling well?
She: (feel like dont want answer me)? then very cincai say ; no la.. very tired only
Me: why this few days dont even give me a call?
She: call you for what? nothing to say also
Me: then you go this few days reali nothing want to say with me?
She: (no answer me)
She: can you borrow me you earphone?
Me: okay.. i go and take for you
*after i take the earphone for her
Me: can i ask you a last very old-fashioned question?
She: What?
Me: u go this few days got miss me or not?
She: is it this important?
Me: i just want to know
She: if got then how? if no then how? after tell you is it you will feel happy?
Me: then i was feel like "knives in my heart"


Day 3 without you

21/5/14, 10.29p.m

i have been waiting you for 3 days already
even just a simple call u also didnt do it..
i was keep taking the phone beside me..
i was keep waiting, waiting and waiting
i duno who i can speak out with all this

the most satire thing is when you are not feeling well  i only can get to know from your mother
WTH
im the one always last to get the information

maybe you are right.. family will be always the first to you..
i coming behind..
now all the thing that i do on last time will be teting in my own
i wont be speak out with you.. i dont want you feel suffer
i have been 3 days didnt hear your sound.. is 3 days.. do you know?

Everyday i was keep facebook-ing is want to see you got update status or not..
i want to know all the thing about you..

maybe our 4 years relationship is the time that all the previous sweet period will not be around again..
but for me is no.. whenever you are not around me.. i will start miss you.. i want to find you.. i want you to text me..
this are truth..
sometime weekend when i back to home i will keep taking my phone also..

报应

15/5/2014, 7.38a.m

你们相信这个世界上有报应的吗?
我现在相信了..因为现在报应应在我的身上了..
不知从何时..我问之间的话题就是等于没有话题..
现在的她就等于是以前的我..
我也不能怪她..
一切的源头都是来自于我..
我只能说的是..各位“真的要珍惜眼前人”
“她”可以说是我人生中陪着我一起成长的女人..
"她“教会了我很多的人生道理
”她“一路中不嫌弃的陪伴着我
直到今天了..也许是累了吧..
谢谢你知道今天的陪伴..
昨天我忍不住在车上哭了出来
真的不好受
我现在可以明白像当初她要在车上忍住不哭出来的那种感觉
因为我自己也忍不住了
谢谢你多年来的陪伴..你在我心目中排着了一定重要的位置了..
谢谢你..我的女人..

Tuesday, 20 May 2014

Day 2 without you

Today was a second day without you beside me..
i was feel like lost a something..
ya..when together will get arguement..but when not beside will lost something and suffer..

but all this thing that i will not going to tell you.. i dont want u feel me like a child..
not growth yet..
but i was damn miss you even just a second day..

as what i promise to you.. i will take care your parent till you back..
but what i hope is can care you and them not only this period..

hope you will faster come back la..

Now i only understand..
when someone are waiting the other partner come back is more suffer than the partner are going to other places for work..
now i only understand that type of feeling of waiting the lover to come back home..


Sunday, 18 May 2014

Boring Sunday

Today is sunday..
Happy sunday everyone..
Today should have many people are gathering with family, lovers, or other else..
But im sitting in office now..

Haizzzzz....
How come my life is like this ah??
!@#$%^&*()
Fxxxking boring la..

Last time u know how to say other couple are go out during weekend.. but why you are stay at home??
Then now is the same case with me is it?? weekend im still in office also.. but where are you??
Haizzzz...
Sometime i reali... haizzzzz...

我应该多为自己想想吧

i know you are more happy when u are gathering with your friend now compare with previous..
actually that is the good thing..
but i cant control myself.. that time of jealous will appear in my heart..
when i hear that you are close with other boy.. i more pain in my heart...
but i understand the concept.. in the world.. that is just have the boy and girl only..

But.. i duno what happen to myself la..

be4 this i still think want to ask you do you think about that the future of us..
do you feel like want to marry?
but i know all this is just my own thinking only la..
all is just my own thinking only..
so i think better to think enough la.. dont speak out..

Saturday, 10 May 2014

Let it go

My heat was got a kind of speechless feeling..
I was feel like want to cry it out..
i got no way to vent out my feel..

I was reali feel helpless
I aware that surround me was reali no a friend that can let me to speak out my sadness..
i was keep telling myself don't like this..

BUT i was reali can't make it..

When i was get sad that time i was think that i will able to handle..
but actually that is not easy..
Like people say..
when u love someone you can use one hour to do it..
when u get couple u can use one day to do it..

BUT when u want to forgot someone that are using infinity time u also can't forgot it..
When u got a feel as me..
That was mean that you are already fall into a very deep deep deep and deep hole..
On that time.. u was already inextricable into this hole..

This few day when i watch the Hong Kong Drama "Love Me Please Leave a Message"
I was wonder that is it i will like a leading man in the drama..
I was Reali feel tired with this type of life..

I hope that i will understand the meaning of this word:
"when something that are be destined belong to you.. no wonder how it will still belong to you"
But if i have never been work hard to maintain it.. is it still will belong to me?

Saturday, 26 April 2014

Boring Saturday

So fast have pass one week again..
today is saturday again..

In this few days, duno what happen to us..
sometime we r good, sometime we r bad..
is it this mean that are still not stable yet?

in this few days i was keep hear that you want to find a new bf..
actually maybe this was some word that you want to 激me..
but when i hear like this i wan reali feel like.....
ehhhh~ duno how to say that feel..
but what i hope is i still can protect when im still able right now..

Now my problem is on the fxxxking monday..
why i was keep doing the wrong thing..
even is just a simple task i wasn't complete it perfectly..
haiizzzz.
i have no mood la..
when think that monday have to go back work again..
it was feel like:"har... monday again ah??"

hopefully it was not a very big problem la..
Sad case..

Sunday, 26 January 2014

Happy Chinese New Year

Countdown 1 more week is the chinese new year...
wakakaka...
The mood is coming now...

most happy is finally i was end my U life with three years period time..
and i have finish all my exam..
this is the most happy thing..

after happ now is headache time..
till now still cant get one company that i am comfortable..
haizzz...
i also dunno how..

i wish both of us internship road will be smooth and good ..
good luck to u pretty...
and happy new year..




Saturday, 11 January 2014

思念是多么的痛苦

This suppose is  post by yesterday..
but there have very bad line..
so it was post by today..

yesterday u have went back sitiawan to attend ur another sister wedding dinner..
i have stay at house..
i was feel so alone..
i was very missing you..
even when we are together we have many argument..
but when you are not around then i will feel miss you..
haizzzz... i also dunno why will become like this..
let say if one day when you are going to singapore then we were not stay together then how was my life??

i know me as a boy.. i shouldn't have this type of feeling..
but all this will come out in my mind and i have not able to control it..
PRETTY.. I MISS U SO BADDDDDDDDLY..

2 more days we are facing a final sem exam..
actually it was a quick pressure.. how to say.. cz it also a last exam in my U life..
so if i was failed any one subject then i have to eat shit ady..
somemore have to retake the subject again..
OMG.. it was wasting my time..
after chinese new year we have to go for internship..
it was quick interest actually..
cz in my mind i have already set up a concept..

as a boy.. we have to earn a money as we are still young..
so that.. i wish that i can earn my first "Pot of Gold" before i turn to 30..
haha..

all the best to all my friend that are same with me to face a final sem exam in Monday..
GOOD LUCK